the fucking spc!!!!

so some of u had know n some didn`t . . now im continuing my study at rural place again. . but i dont mind bcoz im used to it before at qber rite??qber is also an urban place that maybe 2km from the nearest town. . now im studying at KOLEJ MARA KUALA NERANG. . it is quite near from thailand. .hahax. but my situation here is quite risky bcoz mara wants only the pure excellent student to be in this programe. . u know the scolarship that had been offer is not just 20 or 30 thousand but it is rm520 288.50 .it is a big amount. i can buy bmw with that money by cash. .so some of us that might not get straight A`s must leave this programme n also this college. im afraid that im will be one of them. i dont want to go home. did u know how shameful it will be if i were rejected from this programe.n go home with nothing. how about my parents??? they r hoping the best from me. .they also had told all their friends about me. .they r proud of me. . but . . . what if i failed n go home with nothing??? aaaaaaaaaaarh!!!!it is so hard to describe. . n another question that runs to my mind is. . . .if i failed in dis programe did u guys still want to be my frend???????